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Someone once told me we must 

“Give God control during times of peace or BEG Him to take control during times of chaos!”

This week, for me, has certainly been marred with chaos...

Yet, still, I do not beg.....

If you ask me why I’m angry

Then I will tell you

I will say

That under the umbrella of anger 

Is fear

And there’s so much that I’m afraid of.

And I will tell you what I’m afraid of.

The dark. 

And not the dark that comes 

when the sun sets and the moon rises. 

When the stars light up the night sky.

But the ABSOLUTE absence of LIGHT.

Where light is synonymous with love 

And love is an intangible

Unreachable

Unimaginable 

Thing.

If you ask me why I’m angry 

Then I will tell you

That I have lost more than I’ve gained

And the storms don’t seem to end

When finally lets up the rain

The wind slams me down again.

And I’m afraid.

That I won’t ever be able to stand 

on my own two feet

Without the rain pounding on my face

Or the hurt beating in my heart.

And I can’t hardly see the LIGHT

For darkness RIPPING me apart

And I am ANGRY

Because anger is synonymous 

with FEAR

and I am terrified. 

Of the darkness lingering here.

I wait for morning. 

It’s always darkest before dawn

& after mourning

Comes strength & a will to carry on.

I AM the LIGHT

Despite my troubles- Big or small

I am not anger! 

I AM the LOVE that conquers all.