Some Kinda Way

I’m feeling some kinda way

And I want to feel no kinda way

I just want to walk away

While I still have my sanity.

Cuz I was once floating in Space

But now I’m weighed down by gravity.

Full of emotions that once elated me, but

Now sadden me.

This is MY reality!



Well, curiosity just killed the cat

And though satisfaction brought him back

I’m now sitting here wishing I’d never tried any of that…

Of THIS…

Our one night stand… that first “innocent” kiss

But then I stop and reminisce and

Oh, the pleasure… oh, the bliss

Remind me again how I got myself into this!



Self gratification. Selfish desire,

Turned you into a cheater and me into a liar.

Cuz you ARE engaged, but I was untrue.

Not only lied to myself, but lied to you too!

I can’t just “F*ck” and move on!

Acknowledge my feelings do exist,

And then pretend that they’re gone

I can’t pretend this is right,

When we both know it’s wrong

I drove two hours home playin’ these damn love songs!



As we slept the night away,

We didn’t think about the price we’d have to pay.

Or how we’d deal if our feelings got in the way

Or how to see clearly in a room full of haze

Blinded by lust, lost in a daze.

“How do I love you? Let me count the ways”?

(Background action - counting on fingers)

This is so unfair, but this is the choice that WE made!



So, now I’m left to reflect on how I spent my yesterday.

Try to erase the feelings that continue on today.

Not even give tomorrow, a chance to get in the way

And figure out how in the hell I can just walk away!



And you see, I’ve already established

That this is NOT a love thing

A go out, but a ring, and propose kinda thing.

This was a once in a lifetime, lost control kind of thing. This was just a FLING!



And on everything I know, I want the best for you.

So, go off and marry her, if that’s what you choose to do!

But we can’t have our cake and ice cream

AND eat them both too!



And I’m NOT asking you to choose

PLEASE DON’T MISUNDERSTAND

Cuz you are HER Fiancé

You were never even my man!

And I’m not trying to have you

That was never my plan

I just want us to put this behind us

And I hope that we can!

And if we can’t

I’m not quite sure what that means

‘Cuz Like I said before

It was supposed to be a FLING!



I’m feeling some kinda way

And I want to feel no kinda way

I just need to get away

I just want to walk away,

While I still have my sanity!



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COJ