Why Should I continue to allow you to win?
When
Nine times out of ten we'll never be more than friends
And
I'll be forever confined to this box that you keep me in.
Stringing me along that's your way to control me.
Tellin' me lies to pacify and console me.
Same sad story and it's starting to get old.
See,
You tellin' me about all the women who've wronged you
And how you're so afraid that that's what I'm gonna do
Sounds full of it to me
And damn it, I'm too strong to
Settle for less than I deserve.
I constantly tried to cater to you
Whatever you needed, I was on call for you
But
I guess you needed more than what I could do
So
We began to drift apart and go our separate ways
And
I experienced so many sleepless nights and so many lonely days
That I had time to sit and analyze
all of the games that we played
And I came to the conclusion
That we were both just probably too damn afraid
To let go of our freedom
But
I guess the more time we spent apart
the lonelier WE became
Because we started to talk again
But all the problems still remained
So
I came to the conclusion that I was just too good for you
Gave all that I had, but it wasn't enough for you
Gave you ALL of me, but got only PARTS of you
Got so tired of trying that I said I was through.
Sure, at times I miss you
Want to hold you, want to kiss you
I want to take things back to before we parted.
Before trust died and the drama started
See, I know things most likely will never be the same, but
That doesn't stop the feelings and it doesn't ease the pain!
Though I know one man doesn't stop the show
Healing takes time and progression is slow
So I continue to move on and go for what I know.
Next time.......
Not settling for less than I deserve!!
©
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Hey Shamrocks (green eyes). Love your poetry and continued inspiration. Keep shining. I already know you will.
"Jab, jab, uppercut."
Look at you. Throwing combinations and everything. Lol. That's the Brooklyn in you.
I've been feeling rather poetic myself, as of late. (Thanks for the inspiration). I think I wanna write and post poetry to you in this thread.
Free
I rather innocently stumbled across an injured bird
its wings were damaged.
as I approached,
I noticed the hurried and frightened manner in which it attempted to fling its tattered and torn body
into the air,
and soar high into the clear blue skies,
but without much-needed and accustomed strength,
the anticipated flight just wasn't there.
So I cared enough to kneel down and see if anything I could do,
such as apply first-aid to a feather or two.
I, of course, perfectly knew,
the helpless bird could not do the same for me,
but something in my heart was certain that some things in life are simply meant to be...
free.
- 12/14/15
Hey Niketa! I wanted to tell you that I am SO in love with your vision board. It's exactly how I'd imagine YOUR vision board to look. I saved to my phone and macbook, so I'm able to read and be inspired by everything posted at all times. Very inspiring, you most definitely are. Very beautiful and very talented and extremely convicted soul. #DopeWomenInspire #Freedom #Growth #Transformation #SayItLoud #ThatWasNotWhatSheWasExpecting #SheIsNotSayingAnythingSheIsJustSayingWhatSheIsSaying
Lol. So funny. Just like your hashtags be hilarious.
I miss you, friend.
I Love Your Smile
I love your smile.
it speaks of the sweetest of essence that has been present for awhile.
more than I imagine, I'd suspect.
although I'm hardly surprised...
cause you my friend are truly blessed.
I found myself in the presence of a spirit that glowed
and took it upon myself to let you know.
I love your smile...
I had missed for a short while,
but now all is right in the Universe.
at first, I wasn't so sure this would remain the case.
not being able to express myself felt like a curse.
a man unable to celebrate a particular woman's worth.
luckily, understanding is the best thing on Earth.
I knew,
I could never undo the unfortunate events of that regrettable day.
but I needed to reach out and apologize,
regardless of whether you cared to hear anything else I had to say.
I'm sincere, my dear;
if I wasn't, I would've never asked privately for your ear.
nor am I delusional. a woman like yourself can have any man you want, need, and then some.
so, at the least, I only hope to be some kind of friend when all is said and done.
I'm humble...
because there are many upstanding qualities that extend your inner core: I could go on and on for evermore.
and had I not recognized the one distinctive attribute that served as a pathway to all of your truths...
going on and on and on is exactly what I'd do.
but alas,
it took me to pay attention to only one thing to know everything your essence compiles...
your smile.
I. love. your. smile.
#ISeeYou #IDo #ThatIsHowIKnowYouAreLivingProof #IfOnlyYouKnewHowMuchIPrayForYou
You are a BEAUTIFUL woman. This has never been in question. The first time I laid eyes on you, it really was hard to pull my eyes away. So pretty and more importantly pure. I didn't realize the extent of that purity until I quietly followed your spiritual journey. And it was here, where I recognized the virtue. I imagine you're saying that's the case with everyone traveling similar path, Don, to which I'll reply: no this hasn't been my experience. But you, YOU, offered resonance; a vibration that resonated with me. So much in fact I drew inspiration. I'm inspired by you. You are an inspiring light. And this, ultimately, proved to be the shining witnessed in your eyes and most likely the joy in your heart. Even if you weren't a sweet bow-legged mixture of butterscotch, caramel and honey, I'd still remain drawn to you based on your spirit. Your incorporeal being is just as pleasing to the senses as your material being. Your eyes shed light. Your smile reveals your angelic spirit.
They say,
eyes are windows to the soul.
If I had not known beforehand,
now I truly know.
although your eyes had always held physical appeal,
I am taken aback by the spiritual reveal.
there is a joy
within you
that cannot be stolen,
for it isn't man-made.
and it serves as a receipt of the gift
that you do not take for granted;
only advantage of:
the price paid for your immeasurable faith
and undying love.
#PrettyWings
#YouSoarToUnimaginableHeights
#YouSaidIWasABlackBirdThatWouldNeverLearnToFlyButITookThatToMeanYouSawThatIHadWingsToo
Not sure if you remember, Beautiful Being, but you recommended a song and gospel artist to me in 2014.
This is the song. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-pD2zIuiC2g
In regard to you, for me, this song provides an inspiration that is no different than the one captured in your eyes and smile. And I've listened to this song every morning, since that day. Thank you.
#TheFaceYouMake
#YouAreAnInspiringLight
#UseYourGifts
#PositiveVibes
#OneThingIDoEveryDayThatInspiresMe
#MaybeOneDayYouWillGiftUsWithAPoemAboutInspiration
Watch this video, you're gonna love its inspiring message. You've probably already seen before since it speaks of that "jump" you've referenced.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFltqHCTTVo
Happy Sunday!
A Smile Says
No matter how the day has gone;
no matter how it has been;
good or bad,
one can always depend
on a smile to light the way.
a warm smile says pretty much anything
a person wants it to say.
like a defining moment,
a smile shines brightly,
especially when it's natural
and comes from one's spirit; within,
a place where it's impossible to pretend;
the space where the flesh ends
and the soul begins.
a smile says: I am a positive source, a driving force.
which is needed in this world
where
heartfelt joy has taken a backseat
and people are afraid to be happy.
fortunately,
this isn't the case with you.
which is to say: your light shines thru...
like a beautiful song,
where one's spirit becomes soaked into the lyrics,
each time you hear it,
to the point where it warms the heart in every way,
this is what your smile says.
I want you to forward to the 4:30 mark of this video and listen to the song. Then I want you to continue to hold up the light, it's an important gift, it's what draws us all closer. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34ZNF9JI7nw
I love the Frederick Douglass quotes. Maybe you recall where I tweeted them long time ago? I agree with his words: legwork is the difference between hoping and going, doing, being. We both know this.
I told you awhile ago that you've a fire that I hadn't witnessed. I wanted it. I still want it. When I wrote how I prayed for you, it was said to say that I thanked God for the beauty of your spirit.
We should talk.
OMG!!! Don, how am I JUST seeing these comments?!? Just, how! You're totally the best!!! Like, THE.BEST!!
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